After my first fertility round of Clomid, I took a pregnancy test, and it was POSITIVE. I sat on the toilet with the stick I had peed on in my hand screaming for Robie to come see. I didn't believe it was true. Even after Robie confirmed there were 2 lines, I still went to the store and bought 3 other brands of tests to make sure this was no joke. After getting a positive result from 3 other test, it finally sunk in. We were really pregnant! Although this was great news, I was still worried at what might happen. Should we tell people? Should we tell family? What if something happens...again? What if the tests were all broken and lied? Countless questions and "What ifs..." filled my brain, but I soon realized that stressing would do no good. If this was the first time, would I be stressed? Probably not. So why stress now? We decided to tell my family in Texas the news, and they were so excited.
When we came back from our Texas trip, we went for our 6.5 week ultrasound. Robie and I were SO nervous. The last ultrasound we had didn't end so well, and I was not sure what to expect with this one. The technician poured the warm jelly on my stomach and started to look for the baby. She could not find anything. My heart sunk. She said I had to have an inner ultrasound to get a better look- just like last time. As I was changing in the bathroom, I could not help but pray and cry at the same time. She searched again, and a smile came to her face. "That is your baby," she said as she pointed to the screen. I suddenly felt overwhelmed with love for this little blob I was looking at, and I started to cry. It was so amazing. Seeing and hearing the heartbeat of this thing the size of a tic-tac was just crazy! I was shocked at everything happening in that moment. It was truly a miracle.
So, we are finally having a baby! I feel okay saying it out loud now. I am SO grateful for this blessing in our lives, and for the opportunity Heavenly Father is trusting me with to be a mother. Am I still nervous? Yes, but I feel like things will be okay this time. We have many friends still going through the trying process to have a baby, and we want you to know we are praying for you. Thanks to all our friends and family for the love and support offered on our behalf.
We are super excited and blessed for our little baby. Our due date is December 31st, which isn't the best day of the year, but I will take it! I'm hoping it will come early so we get a nice tax return, but Robie wants it to be the first baby of 2011 so we get all the fun gifts of being the first baby of the New Year. Whatever day it decides to come, I know it will be the best day of our lives. We couldn't be more excited!
Look how much our baby has grown in 2 weeks! From tic-tac to large raspberry!
6.5 weeks
8.5 weeks
On a side note: My birthday post can be better explained now. The reason why I was SO tired and SO not in the mood to go out to eat on my birthday was because of this little blob. Every time I feel like throwing up or passing out at my desk at work, I have to take a step back and remind myself that I wanted this. I'm counting down the weeks when I can start enjoying the taste of food again.





